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I've always believed in the silver lining to every grey cloud, and that things usually don't turn out as bad as they seem set to be. Whilst someone slammed the phone on me (I was asking this tattoo artist for an interview but he was adamant about not speaking to the press) for the first time today, I also realised that there are more nicer people than I thought there would be. 

People often don't realise how an "are you doing alright?" or a "you ok?" on the instant messaging system would matter, but when its done, it suddenly makes everything seem manageable. Doubts clear, tensions ease and guards are let down. During the past 3 weeks, I've seen the ugly and the uglier. That being said, for most part, I'm ashamed of my initial impressions. People aren't as cold or unfriendly as I (or sometimes, we) perceived. First impressions can be deceiving indeed. 

But then some people disappoint. They are way up at the top, right at the peak of their game, experts in their profession, yet all this prowess they possess can never mask the vile disposition they exhibit. Office politics, boss-subordinate attitudes I understand, but certainly there is no need - or should I say it is inappropriate - to be disrespectful. Surely being cordial is not too much to expect?

People slog their asses off to rise up the ranks, and then throw their weight around. I hope I never end up a person like that. If so, then I should be very ashamed, and shouldn't deserve anything at all.
 

 There was a massive (well, considered so judging by whatever shit's been plaguing me recently) outpouring of love this week. A tea treat, loads of volunteer listening ears and advice for what I'm going through. It hasn't been at all what I anticipated, but I guess it's beginning to look like it might just all make perfect.

I shan't go into details here, but those of you who know, know exactly what a load this has been on my mind the past couple of days. For those of you who don't, well, I'm now at the Straits Times, where I will be for the next 6 months.

I guess in a way this is a dream come true, to see my name card printed with "journalist" on it - I really can't remember when this aspiration of mine was born. But it did, (sometime in late primary school, when I realised my love for writing) and I'm glad it has come into fruition today. I don't care if it is cliched to say I'm living the dream, because I really am, and I think many of my closest friends know that, too. 

However, due to some unexpected events this week, what I really wanted to do/try has been postponed (due to no fault of mine but simply company's arrangement) and it has been a struggle for me this week, between fighting hard and insisting on what I want, and pleasing everyone else. But I think I've come to a comfortable compromise, and so far I'm happy with how it has turned out. It is also very apt that last Sunday's mass was about accepting vocation, and trusting that in God's time, all things will turn out right.

I don't know if it was "serendipitous", as put by my editor, but I do know that know that there's a time for everything, and even if it's not now, it will come some time, finally.

 Finally, after almost 2 months, I'm down to updating. Hopefully blogging won't prove ephemeral yet again.

I am currently drowning in shitload of work and econs is proving to be a pain in e ass because 1) I don't understand, 2) I forgot everything JC taught me, 3) I am saturated with info and 4) because i am utterly disappointed and upset and therefore can't study.

I apologise for such a dramatic and upsetting post the day I decide to update. But it's just the way things are today.

Isn't it most disappointing when the one person you thought understood you most lets you down, and you start to wonder how much do they really know about you? They know what makes you happy (sometimes they go all out to do so, and sometimes they don't, that's another funny thing altogether) but thing is, they don't seem to know what makes you sad.

And even when they know, there is always a perfect excuse for it. 

The rain and the gloom today is foreboding; i should've known.

 Haven't updated in a looonnnggg while!

In short:

- Did reviews for Naumi and Link hotels which were SWANKY BABY! Loved Naumi and e rooftop pool : )
- Signed up for a massage package (ie: lots of massages!)
- NUS' The Next Wave where I met Kel(ly) and Andrew for e first time since we both went for exchange
- Tango with Kel is lookin' good! : )

OH, and I got my SPH internship for our professional attachment next year. Yay!

For now, so much work to catch up on this one-week hol. SO regret taking Econs as my elective, sigh : (

 Till then!